Experiences

Experiences are a funny set of things. They are ours - they've clearly shaped us, made us parts of who we are and they're what we often share. But they're also constraints, we can be bounded by them and think within them.

I think that's why I like to challenge ideas, mine foremost - an aspiration which I hope when measured against I at times achieve. That's also why I think we need to do things outside our comfort zone, do things that aren't easy or without effort and trial - we have to expand our own horizon.

But we also have to challenge preconceptions, by which here I mean specifically those built on the foundations of our experience. Maybe it's accepting with all the complexities of life's nuanced factors the value of those assessments is often less than we imagine.

What does a certain response mean? What will the ultimate outcome of this be? Should I do this or not? The answers that come to any of these are hints, but regardless of the good signs and warnings signs the signage is not definitive.

It's just hard to do anything while simultaneously holding the real possibility of failure both in hand but significantly at bay. For me it's sometimes hard to push through the alarms even if in the cause of outcomes I may desire. Even then there can be an expectational price to anticipated success.

I guess rather than a curse it's my challenge to explain that to those different people I was hinting at before. And maybe something in there speaks to the beauty of finding like minded people who see past, see through and get it - understand a quirky individual for all that's seen and the boundlessly more that's not.

And like a catch 22 soon enough I'll hit my own internalised signage again no doubt. But with these words written here's hoping to ponder through.